It's amazing how much life can change in one month if you put your mind and energy into changing it. A month ago I joined Blogger out of desperation to share what I was going through, it helped to see my thoughts and emotions written down.
Last month I was living with my husband, who I wanted to divorce, sleeping on a king size bed that still didn't feel large enough for the two of us to have our space. Now a month later, I'm living with my sister, my two adorable nieces and my sister's roommate. I spent the first week sleeping on the couch the first half of the night and then moving to the older niece's bedroom when she left for school at 6am. Now I'm sleeping in my younger niece's room. It's funny to be in a kid's room with stuffed animals and to cover myself with her Beauty and the Beast blanket. Reminds me of a time when life was a little less complicated.
I've landed the opportunity I've been dreaming of, an internship at a restaurant in New York. Yes, the big city. Finally!! These are the changes that I thought were never possible. I feel that life is an adventure again. I had been missing the unpredictably of it. Being married made me feel that my entire life was already written at that point. I could fast forward 5,10,15 years and know that I'd be with that same person and have the same dynamic of that relationship. For most this would be comforting; for me this was a prison sentence.
I've served my time and have been pardoned. New York, here I come.
